TL;DR

Sharing memories in the hope of receiving closure and finding freedom from the trauma associated with them.

Trigger warning

Posts will contain descriptions of abuse and mental health struggles which some viewers may find distressing.

 Here's a  TL;DR 

• Parents divorced aged 2 - bio father was abusive toward Mum (See post here)
• Mum started dating a heroin addict
• Mum is in-and-out of mental health ward as an outpatient for several years due to several suicide attempts
• Aged 5, Mum and stepdad #1 marry
• Sexually abused by teenaged babysitter
• Stepdad is abusive toward my brother and me
• Aged 9, Mum divorces stepdad
• Aged 11, heroin addict reappears
• Aged 14, first boyfriend; a 19 year old. Complete heartbreak
• Aged 15, begrudgingly entered into relationship with friend who was infatuated with me (See post here)
• Brother is brutally assaulted and almost dies as a result of a brain haemorrhage
• Boyfriend is all kinds of abusive. Rapes and sexually abuses me regularly over the next five years. Financial abuse, estrangement from family & friends, emotional and mental abuse, physical abuse... you name it, I suffered it. (See posts here, and here)
• Aged 20, I finally leave abuser and go home to my Mum
• I meet my now-husband and learn that I had been the victim of abuse. It had never occurred to me before. I begin trying to heal